I have been told that I have a lot of energy when I work out. Sometimes that I have a lot of motivation, will, or other such noun. They are all to be thought of as compliments, but I am not sure if they accurately portray what pushes me to work out, even when I don’t want to.
This morning my alarm was set for 5:00 AM. It did not wake me up. I don’t know if it didn’t go off, although it was in the alerts banner on my phone. I didn’t hear anything, but the phone wasn’t on vibrate. I woke up around 6:15, saw the fail and reset the alarm for later. My coffee didn’t get the memo, so it still brewed. I mic’d 1/2 of it, and used a friend’s advice to put the rest over ice. Very refreshing. Unpacked clothes from gym bag to get dressed and packed gym clothes. I would go to the gym after work. No biggie, it has happened before. The nice trade off is that I don’t have to finish at any time. I can go as long as I want.
I pushed through the day, making plans for working this weekend. Not what I really wanted after the week that needed to end. One misfortune after another, and I just wanted to wash my hands of it. When I left work, it was gorgeous outside. For Rochestarians, we must seize these moments, for they are glorious and few. I decided to stop at wegs and pick up dinner, then go home, change and go for a run outside. After all, I do have the Flower City 5K next week.
So run I did! I was slow, but steady. Brought a smart water with me, and stopped every once in a while to have a drink. Used mapmyrun to track it. Now when I started, I was still going through in my mind how far I wanted to go. I was very unsure of wanting to keep going. I started to have to remind myself that I was mentally drained and emotionally drained but my physically body had no reason to be drained. I might think I’m beat and tired and exhausted, but it really was in my head. So keep running and ignore the stupid head.
By the time I got about 1/2 around my little route, I was really enjoying the run. Not sure if that had to do with my getting to East Ave, and out of the hood…. Once I got home, I still wanted to do some weights, because today is supposed to be a strength training day. Every day is cardio. 2 of my 4 workout days are weights. So I put in Jillian Michael’s Shred It, and chose the advanced workout. I lasted about 16 minutes, did most of the modifications and had to make some of my own. Ow. Then I did my abs challenge. Can’t be the organizer of a challenge and not do it! My legs started seizing up, so I had to stop and massage them. I was also completely beat, so I kept taking breaks. I didn’t really give a hoot. Bethany Ever After made it oddly relaxing. Nevertheless. there my have been no time limit, but eventually I just wanted to be finished.
So I don’t know if it is a determination or will, pretty sure it’s not energy, but I am more than 1/2 way to my goal of losing 124 lbs. I am kind of in automatic pilot as much as possible, with taking care of myself and working actively to get where I want. I have a propensity to move forward.
I was pondering the potential propensity while pedaling my legs around that route tonight.
Running 1 hr 22 min – 982 cal
Shred It Kettlebell Adv 16 min – 184 cal
Abs Challenge 23 min – 165 cal
Total 2 hr 1 min – 1,331 cal
At least the day is almost over, even if the week is still going strong. It has a propensity to do that, I guess.