4/70

I know, I know.  I am one annoying yo-yo right now.  Just can’t seem to break through to 75.  My doctor gave me the clear to work out if I felt like it, and what did I do?  I didn’t work out all week.  I didn’t feel like it.  I was crabby and tired, and it was all because I wasn’t exercising.  That became more and more clear as the week went on.  Still, I just didn’t have the push to go workout.  I was frustrated over the tests and the doctor’s appointments and the pending procedures.  I’m still frustrated.

I had an ultrasound on Wednesday, which was going to tell us if I needed an in office biopsy or an in hospital one.  We had scheduled the in office one for the 13th.  Then I got a voice mail on Friday reminding me about my appointment on Monday the 2nd.  I had never known of this appointment, so I had to call them back and ask what was up.  I hadn’t gotten back any results on the ultrasound.  Well, after explaining the situation to the receptionist, she said the nurse would call me back.  Of course, when she call back, she didn’t have even a slice of the story, so I had to explain it all again.  She looked at my information and said she wanted to get a hold of my doctor to make sure what the “plan” was.  I would love to know the plan!  I still haven’t heard back, so I don’t know if I have to leave in the middle of work tomorrow, or if I wait til the 13th.

I’m not worried about the unknown.  It is what it is.  In all likeliness, it is something minor.  What is frustrating is all the tests, exams, interruptions in my day to find out so little.  To not be told what is happening.  You have to be an aggressive advocate for yourself when going to doctor’s offices.  It is exhausting.  Make sure you ask all the questions, get all in the information, don’t let yourself get cut off, or your concerns shunned. 

So, enough time spend obsessing over that stuff.  I painted two parts of my porch railing yesterday.  My plan is to paint the center today.  I also hope to get my house in order, so that I can go to the gym tomorrow morning.  It’s time to get back on the horse.  I got some great cucumbers and tomatoes at the market yesterday.  I’m going to make a little cucumber tomato salad and put it in wraps for the week, with some left over chicken and deli meats.  Gotta pick up some tzatziki sauce at the store.  Yum!  Also grabbed some champagne mangoes, strawberries, and peaches.  Peanut butter chobani dip will also be made for the strawberries. 

No excuses.  I am the only one keeping me from hitting 75 and moving forward.  The rest is just background noise.

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